To all my friends out there who've ever told me "I'm fine" when you looked visibly upset:

No. No you're not. Don't lie to me, but more importantly, don't lie to yourself.

I'm not the most aware of my friends' emotions - most of the time, I'm too busy wrapped up in my own little world of random things to deal with or too busy trying to get to the next place I have to be. So if I notice something's wrong, then something's really wrong.

I don't push. Or at least, I don't try to. I make it a habit to never ask "What's wrong?" or "Are you okay?" but instead I ask things like, "Do you want a hug?" Because for me, a hug speaks volumes more to the other person. Because an action is so much more successful at showing that I care, as opposed to a few words. Because I know that sometimes you're not ready to talk about it, and if you don't want to tell me that's fine. Tell me you don't want a hug, or you want to be alone. Push me away. Tell me to go away. Tell me to fuck off for all I care, as long as there's some kind of reaction. But "I'm fine"? I'm fine is the biggest lie anyone can ever tell. Don't lie to me. Don't lie to yourself.

And I'm always available for a hug, or to talk to, or to cry to. God knows I've done it enough to a good number of you, and I fully expect the same treatment back when you need to give it.

And I love all of you so much.